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No one ever could have told me that competition with my past self could be potentially damaging. I felt like I needed to constantly prove to myself that not only am I ok, but I’m also “better than” I was before. I should look lovingly at my past self and honor the person I am today. Just because things look like they aren’t moving doesn’t mean they aren’t. The signs are everywhere.
I’ve learned: Be careful with rushing your healing and recovery. Slow down and live a softer life while you can. I remember where I was this time last year, trying to perform as much as I could before going into surgery soon after my birthday.
I’ve been going, going, going since I regained the strength to lift my arms. I have no chill, but I’m learning not to constantly crack the whip over my own back. I have lots of energy, ambition, and drive. I forget that I am a human being, not a human doing. Here’s to practicing soft life in this world of hustle and grind.
Canceling Vipers Drag was hard, but overworking, trying to produce during an election year, and wanting shows to be more accessible for both artists and regular folks just made sense. The tickets are too high, the rent’s too damn high, and I’m not trying to bleed blood from a turnip. Things have changed. I have changed, and that means I need to respect those changes. There’s a whole new future I never could have planned or imagined for myself that I must make room for. Here’s to a fresh new start, honoring myself and my journey.
Oct 15th, I want to celebrate my birthday in a way that honors all of me. Not pushing tickets or anything that’s not directly associated with appreciation of myself and all that I’ve been through in my 41st year. Tomorrow is not promised. What are you doing with your time?
We shouldn’t be trying to repeat the past. We shouldn’t be trying to “Make America Great Again!” Our power is in the now, not the past. Look at the past, grow, and learn from our mistakes.
Here’s to a fresh new start, honoring myself and my journey.
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